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Missing home..

Monday, June 25, 2012 ? 0 Happy ?

Last week Monday, I was at home with my mother. I started to miss home since I studied in Inti. I always wanted to go home because home is the place where I can hide myself. I also can express my feelings out to my mum as she would listen to what I said. Sometimes I choose not to tell her because I don't want her to worry. Mum you are the best. You will listen to what I said. When I am down, you will be there for me. Is not the number of calls that consider care and love but is the care and love you give me since I am young. I always feel happy when I get to go home. No matter how long the road is, I still have the patient to drive while thinking of my mother. While driving I will receive calls from my mum as she will be asking me where I am. Mum I don't know how would I be if you are not there for me. I know I am eldest of all and you want me to be strong. Somehow I am not as strong as what you think. I may look strong but my inside is really soft. You always worry about me. You always plan everything for me. No matter how tired you are, you will do it. You won't give up easily. This is something that I learn from you. We always do things together. I learn that relationship between mum and daughter is really important because mum is only person that you can share everything with. She will advice you to ensure that everything is fine.

Thanks for reading :)

1st update of the year

Monday, February 13, 2012 ? 0 Happy ?

I stop updating my lonely blog for a few months. The last time I updated was on September 2011. Now is 2012 but I still haven't update my blog. I will just consider this is my first update of year 2012. I can't believe year 2012 is here already. January had just ended with celebration of Chinese new year. I should said its a brand new year for me. Though is a brand new year but I always believe that every day is a brand new day. Brand new day definitely need a brand new smile, hopes and dreams. Happy Valentine Day to my dear. :) I love you.

Thanks for reading :)

Still adapting

Saturday, October 1, 2011 ? 0 Happy ?

Today is the first Saturday without him. I don't know how to express my current feeling but I can ensure that this feeling is not what I want. Dear I know you are sleeping but I do hope you know my feeling. I am trying my best to get rid of this feeling. I hope you are here with me but is time to wake up from dream. I keep thinking about those days when you were with me. Whenever I turned, I could see you but now I can't. I can only see our pictures on my phone, my laptop. Dear can you come back for the sake of Debra? I really miss you. I need you badly. You always tell me not to think too much and you will come back soon. Sometimes I wonder is your meaning of soon equivalent mine. I don't know. Our story began with messenger or messages.

Thanks for reading :)

our memory

Wednesday, September 28, 2011 ? 0 Happy ?

You are leaving tomorrow morning. Your flight is 2am in the morning. At that time I will be sleeping. I don't think you will let me be awake at that time. Dear I know it is a bit too late to

tell you, I don't want you to go back. You know my thoughts well but sometimes it is hard to said yes to it because you still have to go. Dear I really enjoyed your company during the 3 months. You be there for me all the time. When I am sad, you be there to hear me nagging. When I want to cry, you hug me tightly. When I smile, you will make fun of me. When I want to sleep, you willing to be my alarm. When I am lost, you be the one who brings me to the right way. I don't know what else I should said but I really appreciate the 3 months we spent together. I really hope I can follow you back but I can't. It is not my time yet. Dear thanks for the memories we had. Thanks for the fun and joy. I won't forget our memories. Those are the memories that build up our relationship. Is time to shower you with all my love. I really love you. I love you very much. Without you, I don't know how my life would be. I want you to be in my life all the time. I don't mind waking up early to see you. I don't mind what other people will say about us. As long as we know what we are doing then it will more than enough. You still owe me a birthday cake. You don't forget about that.

I really like this picture. I hope you will like it also my love.

I know you like this picture a lot.

Thanks for reading :)

I can't

Wednesday, September 21, 2011 ? 0 Happy ?

You told me last year, I will be alright. I learnt how to be strong. I can't be strong right now because I am not ready to let you go. I want to spend more time with you but I know time don't allow me to do so. What can I do? Just let you go? You told me, sometimes I need to learn how to let go. I admit I have to learn how to let go but why do I need to let you go. I keep telling myself look at the positive side but when I saw couples, I began to think something else. Dear how can I control my mind? How? I don't want you to go. I don't want! Is time to face the reality. You going to go back to London next Thursday. Will I be ok? I promised you before, I will be ok. I won't cry for so long. I remember I took one week to fully calm myself down. How long will I take this time?

One week or two weeks or more than that? Dear please be with me when I am adjusting back to my normal life.

Thanks for reading :)

I am sad

Tuesday, September 20, 2011 ? 0 Happy ?

Will I be alright when you go back to UK? Will I? I keep telling myself is just another 9 months seeing him through laptop but why can I still feel the pain? Why? Why do I still feel sad? Why? I can't take the pain. Dear can you take away the pain? Please take it away because I can't stand the pain. I can't! I want to be strong but when come to you, I am not strong. Dear please take the pain away. Please. I keep thinking about our happy memories but the more I think, the more I will cry. What shall I do? Sometimes when I think of your look, it will make me laugh. I went through it twice. I shall go through it another two more times. After that, I can see you whenever I want. Dear I really miss you. Even though you are at your house, I still miss you. I don't want to be alone. I just want you to company me as much as possible.

Thanks for reading :)

I wish you were here with me.

Sunday, September 11, 2011 ? 0 Happy ?

I wish you were here with me.I wish to have your hug right now. I wish to see you when I turn to my bed. I want to hug you. I want to. I will feel lonely without you. I will insecure without your hug. I will feel uncomfortable without you seeing you every Saturday and Sunday. When can all this end? When can I have all this without looking at the calender or time? Dear I can't let you go. Please don't go away from me. I can't take the pain. I really can't. You know I can't take it but why do I have to feel it? Why?

Thanks for reading :)

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Missing home..

Monday, June 25, 2012 | 1:09:00 PM | 0 Atashinchi

Last week Monday, I was at home with my mother. I started to miss home since I studied in Inti. I always wanted to go home because home is the place where I can hide myself. I also can express my feelings out to my mum as she would listen to what I said. Sometimes I choose not to tell her because I don't want her to worry. Mum you are the best. You will listen to what I said. When I am down, you will be there for me. Is not the number of calls that consider care and love but is the care and love you give me since I am young. I always feel happy when I get to go home. No matter how long the road is, I still have the patient to drive while thinking of my mother. While driving I will receive calls from my mum as she will be asking me where I am. Mum I don't know how would I be if you are not there for me. I know I am eldest of all and you want me to be strong. Somehow I am not as strong as what you think. I may look strong but my inside is really soft. You always worry about me. You always plan everything for me. No matter how tired you are, you will do it. You won't give up easily. This is something that I learn from you. We always do things together. I learn that relationship between mum and daughter is really important because mum is only person that you can share everything with. She will advice you to ensure that everything is fine.
1st update of the year

Monday, February 13, 2012 | 3:28:00 PM | 0 Atashinchi

I stop updating my lonely blog for a few months. The last time I updated was on September 2011. Now is 2012 but I still haven't update my blog. I will just consider this is my first update of year 2012. I can't believe year 2012 is here already. January had just ended with celebration of Chinese new year. I should said its a brand new year for me. Though is a brand new year but I always believe that every day is a brand new day. Brand new day definitely need a brand new smile, hopes and dreams. Happy Valentine Day to my dear. :) I love you.
Still adapting

Saturday, October 1, 2011 | 10:55:00 AM | 0 Atashinchi

Today is the first Saturday without him. I don't know how to express my current feeling but I can ensure that this feeling is not what I want. Dear I know you are sleeping but I do hope you know my feeling. I am trying my best to get rid of this feeling. I hope you are here with me but is time to wake up from dream. I keep thinking about those days when you were with me. Whenever I turned, I could see you but now I can't. I can only see our pictures on my phone, my laptop. Dear can you come back for the sake of Debra? I really miss you. I need you badly. You always tell me not to think too much and you will come back soon. Sometimes I wonder is your meaning of soon equivalent mine. I don't know. Our story began with messenger or messages.
our memory

Wednesday, September 28, 2011 | 10:29:00 AM | 0 Atashinchi

You are leaving tomorrow morning. Your flight is 2am in the morning. At that time I will be sleeping. I don't think you will let me be awake at that time. Dear I know it is a bit too late to
tell you, I don't want you to go back. You know my thoughts well but sometimes it is hard to said yes to it because you still have to go. Dear I really enjoyed your company during the 3 months. You be there for me all the time. When I am sad, you be there to hear me nagging. When I want to cry, you hug me tightly. When I smile, you will make fun of me. When I want to sleep, you willing to be my alarm. When I am lost, you be the one who brings me to the right way. I don't know what else I should said but I really appreciate the 3 months we spent together. I really hope I can follow you back but I can't. It is not my time yet. Dear thanks for the memories we had. Thanks for the fun and joy. I won't forget our memories. Those are the memories that build up our relationship. Is time to shower you with all my love. I really love you. I love you very much. Without you, I don't know how my life would be. I want you to be in my life all the time. I don't mind waking up early to see you. I don't mind what other people will say about us. As long as we know what we are doing then it will more than enough. You still owe me a birthday cake. You don't forget about that.

I really like this picture. I hope you will like it also my love.I know you like this picture a lot.

I can't

Wednesday, September 21, 2011 | 11:23:00 AM | 0 Atashinchi

You told me last year, I will be alright. I learnt how to be strong. I can't be strong right now because I am not ready to let you go. I want to spend more time with you but I know time don't allow me to do so. What can I do? Just let you go? You told me, sometimes I need to learn how to let go. I admit I have to learn how to let go but why do I need to let you go. I keep telling myself look at the positive side but when I saw couples, I began to think something else. Dear how can I control my mind? How? I don't want you to go. I don't want! Is time to face the reality. You going to go back to London next Thursday. Will I be ok? I promised you before, I will be ok. I won't cry for so long. I remember I took one week to fully calm myself down. How long will I take this time?
One week or two weeks or more than that? Dear please be with me when I am adjusting back to my normal life.
I am sad

Tuesday, September 20, 2011 | 10:27:00 AM | 0 Atashinchi

Will I be alright when you go back to UK? Will I? I keep telling myself is just another 9 months seeing him through laptop but why can I still feel the pain? Why? Why do I still feel sad? Why? I can't take the pain. Dear can you take away the pain? Please take it away because I can't stand the pain. I can't! I want to be strong but when come to you, I am not strong. Dear please take the pain away. Please. I keep thinking about our happy memories but the more I think, the more I will cry. What shall I do? Sometimes when I think of your look, it will make me laugh. I went through it twice. I shall go through it another two more times. After that, I can see you whenever I want. Dear I really miss you. Even though you are at your house, I still miss you. I don't want to be alone. I just want you to company me as much as possible.
I wish you were here with me.

Sunday, September 11, 2011 | 8:23:00 PM | 0 Atashinchi

I wish you were here with me.I wish to have your hug right now. I wish to see you when I turn to my bed. I want to hug you. I want to. I will feel lonely without you. I will insecure without your hug. I will feel uncomfortable without you seeing you every Saturday and Sunday. When can all this end? When can I have all this without looking at the calender or time? Dear I can't let you go. Please don't go away from me. I can't take the pain. I really can't. You know I can't take it but why do I have to feel it? Why?

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